I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

This song's chorus describes our little Lettie PERFECTLY!

BEAUTIFUL -Jim Brickman

From the Moment I saw you,

From the moment I looked into your eyes

There was something about you

I knew I knew

That you were once in a life time

A treasure near impossible to find

And I know how lucky I am to have you

Chorus:

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away

The beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day

And when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few

But I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Holding you in my arms

No one else has fit so perfectly

I could dance forever with you, with you

And at the stroke of midnight

Please forgive me if I can't let go

Cause I never dreamed I'd find a Cinderella of my own

Chorus:

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away

The beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day

And when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few

But I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Chorus repeat:

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away

The beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day

And when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few

But I've never seen anything...

Oh Oh, Oh no, I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

From the moment I saw you,

From the moment I looked into your eyes...

Funny How Things Change...

It's funny how things that used to be important to me...just don't seem so important anymore. . .

Like facebook...I used to get on facebook everyday sometimes for hours at a time (Silly I know). Now that I have this amazingly beautiful little girl to look after, facebook, and watching tv, or movies just isn't that important to me anymore.

Even sleep...as much as I LOVE to sleep...I treasure the moments that I have to spend with Violette (I am however, so grateful for Grammy-Tara, and Grandma SuAnn, and Tracy who've all watched Lettie-Mae while I've rested so that I'm functioning well enough to give her the care she needs)!

In the wee hours of the morning I get to sit and rock my little miracle and watch her smile as she dreams. We really are so blessed that she's here with us! There were so many things that could have gone wrong... things that did go wrong...and things that should have prevented her from being here today... In talking with my mom the other day she made me, if not both of us realize how truly lucky we are that she is here. I knew that Dr. Berry was worried during the delivery and I knew things weren't going well...but I didn't realize just how bad they were.

Knowing now what I do...I feel even more guilty when I get frustrated with the lack of sleep or the constant feeding, the lack of time I get to spend with my husband...and every other frustration that comes from being a new parent. I have to constantly remind myself how blessed I am that Violette is here, and that I get to experience all those things...(frustrations)... as a new mom!

I can't imagine life without her! All the things that I used to think were so important...that I've come to realize aren't... i'm okay with the fact that I can't do them! Because the time I would spend on the computer, or doing other meaningless things are now spent with my little Violette and I LOVE it.

Violette Mae

Violette Mae Bird

April 2, 2010

8:15 AM

**I woke up at 5:00 AM with horrible contractions only 2 minutes apart...**

and woke Scott up to go to the hospital.

After gathering all our stuff up we headed to the Timpanogas Hospital!

Arriving at about 5:50 the Nurses were doing shift change.

It took them about twenty minutes to come in and finally get things going.

I started pushing at about 8:00 and Violette was born at 8:15!!!

Labor was a total of 3 hrs...and only 15 mins of pushing!

(above) Violette was so tiny that we didn't have any clothes that would fit her.

Auntie Angie bought her this and a few other Preemie outfits that are just ADORABLE!

(Above) This was the day after Violette was born. I stitched the frog on her onezie. . .

(Above) I was holding Lettie Mae and watching her sleep and she smiled! SO CUTE!

(Above) This was taken right after Violette was born.

She had a really hard time maintaining her temperature so we had to do lots of skin to skin.

**Violette was born with severely clubbed feet and will have to see an orthopedic surgeon. **

Other than that and her small weight she is very healthy and strong!

Dr. Berry thinks that she's so small because her umbilical cord was so long and skinny that she wasn't getting enough nutrients or oxygen.

The umbilical cord was about 4 feet long. It was CRAZY!

(Above) Lettie likes to stretch out! She's a silly girl!

(Above) Again in preemie clothes from Auntie Ang!

**At the hospital we had some GREAT nurses that were so helpful,**

and took wonderful care of Lettie and I!

HOWEVER...there were two that I could have gone without.

One of them we'll call her "Boney Legs"

(because she looked just like "Boney Legs" from the book.)

She was just very rough and forceful with Lettie. I didn't like how she handled her.

The other...she was our last nurse...she was a complete MORON!

I had asked her for pain meds and she said she'd be right back with them...two hours later... "OOH I just spaced it. Sorry"

THEN...we were getting ready to leave and she hadn't gotten my Rx's ready for me.

While we were waiting for her to get them she tried to give me another person's meds.

I kept telling her..."I don't take that. I don't even know what it is..."

"Oh! that's the other mom that I'm discharging!"

AND THEN... she wrote down all of some other babies info on our paper work and had to re-do it when I said, "uh...has my baby really gained two pounds in two days?"

she looks at the paper..."Oh dear...that's a different babies information. Sorry."

This went on with several things...how do people get jobs in that field when they are that ridiculously stupid?

(Above) Just hangin' out bein' cute!

(Above) The blanket that Violette is laying on...

was a little blanket that my Great Grandma Mae (Worthington) Jarman made for me.

Grandma Mae is where we got Violette's middle name!

Just bein' cute again

(Above) Violet kickin' it on Grandma Mae's blanket again!

**We almost had to have an emergency C-Section. **

The umbilical cord was wrapped around Violette's neck.

Every time I contracted her heart rate would drop from 146 down to 40 beats per minute!

It was really scary and everyone was nervous.

But Dr. Berry did a fantastic job of bringing our baby girl safely into the world!

We were very lucky that she came so quickly.

THREE DAYS!

Only three more days until we get to meet our little Violette Mae! (Scott and I changed the spelling of her name this week...we decided we liked it spelled this way more! Not that it wasn't different enough ha ha)

I'm getting so anxious to see her beautiful face, look into her eyes, and hold her in my arms!

It's rather nerve racking that I will be a mom! I sometimes feel like I'm still just a kid so what the heck am I doing HAVING ONE?! ha ha.

Thank-goodness for the amazing Mother I have and the great Mom's I'm surrounded by. I can see how the pro's do it. . . I just hope I do even slightly as well as my Mom has done...I think Violette will turn out okay if I follow in my Mom's steps and love her more than life...and always make sure she knows how much I love her.

YAY...I think I can make it through three more days! (I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...)